Decisions

I've been doing some thinking again this week. I know, that's probably not the best idea, but it happens.

It started the other night when I had the opportunity to go to the US Open thanks to a colleague at work to managed to get his hands on some tickets. It would be kinda work, but much more fun than a normal day that's for sure. But, it was a nasty day. Raining on and off, with more rain forecast for the rest of the night. (And yes, I think an ark might be in order since Ernesto is blowing through here tonight/tomorrow.)

To go or not to go. That was the question.

There were pros and cons on either side, but I finally decided not to go in because of the possibility that there wouldn't be any tennis (and driving in and hour plus to see some new products just to turn around and go home) was not a fun way to spend a night.

For once in my life, I made the right decision. They ended up canceling the match because of the weather, so I was glad I didn't head into Queens in the rain, fighting traffic and stupid drivers and the usual fun situations you encounter at any kind of mass gather of humanoids.

But then, this got me thinking about the decisions I make, have made. We've all heard the question: if you could change anything, would you? The general cliched response is "of course not!" But I think in my case I would have, several times. And that made me wonder where I might be or what I might be doing had I decided some other course of action.

Had I taken that job in the city eight years ago, would I still be there? Doubtful, because the special magazine section was discontinued, but where else might I be working? Doing? Visiting? Traveling? Would I have seen or done half the things I've managed to?

Sometimes I just wish I could re-do everything, start from scratch and see if I can get it right this time around. I guess that's why I like writing: I can tweak it and change it until it seems right, even though it's far from perfect. But then, there's other things in my life that I would never change, even though they brought pain in the end.

I guess that's part of life, isn't it? :: sigh ::

I should probably not post when I'm half asleep and starting to think again. I apologize for the ramble, but I had no SGA to distract me tonight, it's raining ourside, and there's classicial music playing in iTunes. That's my only excuse and I'm sticking to it.